Ytd after school went to china town to find my god parents haha if u all dun know who den too bad. They have just finish their dessert then they were asking me when am i going to rebond my hair. Then they suggest go now because they want to have hair cut, so we went there do my rebonding. Hahah they actually want to highlight the hair but instead they help him dyed to dark brown. Then for me i was having my rebonding wa waited 1 and the half hour to finish, including trim. After rebonding then i know my hair is so long and so curly
This 1 i think is for GOD, why am i facing so many trials i am very tried. i really cannot breath, i really feel like giving up on my faith. God plz do smthg abt it i really feel like dying !!! I really need a helper, why aren't u sending aid to me. i am really going crazy with this. haiz wad can i do? other than pray, can't u do smthg abt it juz help me. I think i haf enuff problems for now. God plz understand what in my's mind and please SAVE me from all this. After all for YOU are merciful.
WHY I HAFING SO MUCH ARGUEMENT WITH PPL NOWADAYS. JUZ ARGUE WIF MY EX, BECAUSE I JUZ WAN TO REUTNR HER THE WALLET BECAUSE IS THE HALF A YEAR ANNIVERSARY GIFT. HAIZ I ALSO HAVE A SERIOUS ARGUEMENT WIF MY MOM, WHY AM I FACING SO MUCH. YTD SERMON IS I WILL BE WITH YOU AND NEVER FORSAKE ME, 2NDLY ALSO IN BOOK OF JOSHUA IS BE VERY STRONG AND COURAGEOUS . God did say his yoke is light but i felt maybe i dun rely him alot and that why i have lots of problem and i feel so trouble, 2ndly is god did say he will give me rest, but i dun find myself resting. anyway i thank god tt i went to ST john chapel .... a chance to follow up with the rest of the ppl there.
juz chat wif my uncle the 1 whom i haf been staying wif, because i heard he want to renovate his house i dun wan him waste money to renovate for me lar. So i told him i want to move out, which i felt is like i am so call haf to stay wif my dad something like force. Haiz wth i really feel so down, why are problems keep coming when i haqven't settle it. I haf to feel the loneliness !! i really been feeling very down. Why ppl keep asking me to think abt others, Y ? Y? y am i always the 1 who being sacrifice. ='(
I hate the world i living in why like tt !! is like a hell lor, holidays coming i want to fully occupy myself. At time i think working if FUN because we can see other people happy. Which do give a sense of satisfaction, anyway we all went to E - Sprit and end up bought a Shirt. Next week i will not be coming except on tue and wed.
Ytd i went to collect my jean from taka, after that i went to buy my ipod touch and it casing. Then ytd not many ppl so we learn new game lor, then come home figuring my ipod. Mel say my ipod got more feature because they upgrade the ware !! haha i just found up then she ask me where i get my ipod, i say newton apple. Then she really believe haha, Why you so confident ! anyway i felt there is nth can change how i feel towards her... Hope she will chose what is best for her
It the naggy me again but i juz cannot keep all dis in my heart, because i will go crazy. Anyway me and her intend to fall out, even we die also dun meet. I know is very extreme but since SHE SO BLOODY HEARTLESS WHAT THE POINT. I REGRET for having her my gf because she was so irresponsible. Haiz she is just bloody hell who repay kindess with evil, this time my heart turn to particle that cannot be seen. I want to move on, my birthday she did nth much. what kind of ex she was, her b'day i gave her rose. OMG forget it just piss me off even more
Haiz i really dun understand what thing i have commit she now avoiding me, we used to chat over the phone even before we date each other. Many ppl have ask me to give up her and move on but is not as easy as ABC. I really try my very BEST to do it. At time i really hate myself, why just i give up just like that. Things are beyond control, ohhh ya i want to thank Aunty poh ling and her family. She sang a birthday song to me ytd, infact is my 1st time tt somebody sing a birthday song for me this year. My this year birthday wish is that i can find somebody love me and care for me. Because i don't want to walk alone ....
About 1 more hour to the End of my birthday, today not so bad all thanks to Gladys because she have accompany me throughtout the whole afternoon and evening. It was quite FUN really, we went for buffet i keep on eating Tofu. Hey gladys i want to eat your "tofu" haha, she will get what i trying to say =x. Then we went stroll around go Apple to check it out, looking at ITOUCH all this. Then go play arcade, that was damn FUN. Then we go watch Cloverfield, the movie so so but was quite freak out at certain part. She haf to bear wif me .... haha, then we went to shop and i got a jean from Levis for my new year. Then i send her home, YTD went to watch the JAY CHOU CONCERT 2008 with angela, i enjoy watching the performance by jay. He sing a lots like Cai Hong, Huang jing jia, Huo yuan jia and also NU ZAI HENG MANG. And i felt Jay voice a bit kiddy tt wad i feel lar no offense. I will still got for the Next concert if possible. Jay plz come back again Hope this time u celebrate my birthday not your. HAHA =x
See show me attitude again ....! kns dun go watch lar you act big shot. Money also won't refund u is your problem please check your attitude when you ask a favour. Spoilt my day again and again, i don't own u ok bloody bitch damn piss off. I have been controlling myself already, SERVE you right waste the 110 dollars cannot go watch. Because of your attitude, you think i own u ar! knn wtf trying to PISS ME OFF
Some girls really thing they big SHOT !! ask her go H.K still want to say me, hey i nvr ask u to pay right !!! sponsor u still kb me, u go and die lar. Everytime like to complain to PAUL den go ahead lar, really cannot take it u THINK U CHIO BU OR NICEST GIRL. NO WONDER ALL UR EX FIND NEW GF including me, UR ATTITUDE IS NVR NICE. U NOW NO MONEY, ALSO NO LOOK, ALSO NO FIGURE DUN TRY TO ACT BIG SHOT HERE !! SPOILT MY DAY BECAUSE OF A BLOODY IDIOT, went to haf dinner wif my dad was still quite happy. Because of her spoilt my day, when i am there u dun cherish i pray god will gif u a BIG FUCK. I SEE HOW NICE UR FUTURE BF.
SORRY for being an asshole this time round, i know we won't patch back anymore that why i hurt her. I know i am such a jerk but i dun think u all understand how i feel. I hope this time round she will give up as well, i am angry because she chose to break yet she still like want me to accompany her study. I mean unless i really so bored then i will chose to go bah, i will rather go work or go out with my DARLINGS. LASTLY i want to get an ipod touch ..... SO COOL lar
HMMM juz feel the heartpain in my heart, because i love her alot yet there is nth i can do ultimately i really dun know wad i can ask from her. Afterall u happy can le, my life still have to move on. Since the day we are over, there is like a barrier that build around us. We have noting to talk also le, i hope by april i can fully let go of this relationship. I think u will be happy after tt. No pt crying over a relationship which u dun make an effort to build it back. That all i feel like talking to u. Don't talk about sad stuffs with her in my mind everythings will turn to sadness, she no longer bring happiness to me but sadness. My uncle intend gif me 400 dollars for present what should i buy, i also look forward going out with Glady on my b'day. ^^
This few days have been editting my blog so recently maybe too free perhaps too many things inside my heart. Today we never go school again went to evelyn place played mahjiong actually got work. But i don't want to anti SOCIAL my fren so i insist i can only work earliest 5+. So they find somebody take over me, i miss the presence of my W46A darlings. Then went to buy headphone .... 55 dollars haha not not bad lar. I remember the last time i bought is about 3 months back. Then went to MOS burger, they were chatting. I was trying on my headphone, then went home. I know i don't feel good and people around me also feel the same. But i hope they will cheer up, because i know the pain. Want to see people around me to be happy. Sorry peeps if i was insensitive, i know i might put on a strong act inside me is empty , sadness and lost.
She just msn me i was really quite disappointing, i know at time angry is very scary. But last time she won't say don't hit me all this things. What give her the impression i will do that ?
站在十字路的交点
该怎么走我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅我有雨天偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决你却越来越远牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些如
此坚决你却越来越远
是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅我有雨天偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
此刻脚步会慢一些如此坚决
你却越来越远
You are really so far now... i really can't see it
Afterall why they like to use the name of God. What God said, For God surely judge them for using his name which is not actually from HIM. Currently i look at the church everyone like trying to act "Holy" or should i say act like " they are really close with God" but i told her if i got scripture to backup why the relationship can be from God Would you leave with me. She chose to stay behind .... I thought u really want to be serious with GOD but i am wrong. I really look down on you for being useless unable not stand up for our relationship . Secondly stop using god name when u actually cannot do it. Dun try to act holy because u are not, u still chose to remain in the church which twist the WORDS of GOD than finding a new church teaching the right thing. IT TOTALLY DISAPPOINTMENT. You left with me noting, and if i think of u. I think u are more sad than me, at least i might not live a christian life because of my faith. But i know God's words and i will try my very best to follow HIM. For you seeing God yet chose the foolish way, i have noting to say. You just let me look down on you for trying to act "HOLY" is not about god or me. But is you
Ultimately is not about god now ... I told you i can find a verse to support my stand yet you still don't chose me. Yes i was super sad .... The problem is you and your " leaders" asking us to break now. Haiz no point continue then
明年这个时间
约在这个地点
记得带着玫瑰
打上领带系上思念
动情时刻最美
真心的给不累
太多的爱怕醉
没人疼爱再美的人也会憔悴
我会送你红色玫瑰(你知道我爱流泪)
你别拿一生眼泪相对
未来的日子有你才美梦才会真一点
我学着在你爱里沉醉
你守护着我穿过黑夜
我愿意这条情路相守相随
你最珍贵
This few days have not been eating well because of her.... Even though QL have a vision for me and pray for me. The vision was i am alone at my mom's place and i felt very trouble. Is accurate, infact i really feel i m left alone and i was having problem to survive this few days. Since QL msg me i told her what really happen. But i don't think noting will help, i doubt even she wants me back i will take it like noting happen. Because i believe is not from god, that we .... The whole morning and afternoon i did not ate anything.
Today i chiong alot in maple 40% before i go wedding dinner .... then i felt very empty in my heart without her. I really hope me and her will have our wedding, when i see the bride and bridegroom walking to the stage with the blessing of so many people i really really feel like crying out. Somemore they tgt for 11 years leh !! stable relationship lar. What abt mine haiz so fragile .... from now i try not to date a christian girl anymore. I feel like dying in my heart and nobody understand how i feel. Den i heard the song ni zui zhen gui esp the chorus i will give u a red rose in chinese lar remind me i gave her the rose on her birthday. Since there is noting can be done i rather. From this moment we cut off all ties i am left all alone, i really feel like dying somemore i was so lonely. Everyday i facing the four wall sooner or later will go crazy hope that god will send some1 to love me and take care of me. Not like her say what god want us to break WTF
haiz this time my heart scatter into pieces again, because of she told me is God who ask u to let go of this. What about those memoris i really go crazy because of this and i have renounce christ. From ytd i m no longer a christian i haf been go back to maple because i haf left alone. What i can do is mapling bah, even though birthday is coming i rather be emo stay at home